Post by tjaman on Mar 15, 2007 5:42:20 GMT -5
YES!
OK, so I finally got my closet cleaned out, after years of just searching for stuff in there, shoving other stuff to the side and letting everything be a gigantic mess.
I gave my old air conditioner to my sister for one thing. That opened up a nice little space for my old computer to live. I could just throw the thing out, but you never know when you might need a decent prop computer and it doesn't take up all the space of ENIAC, so ...
I took a merciless claw to my clothing -- if I hadn't worn it in more than a year it was outta there!
I also pulled out a fuzzy ton of old bedding, which fit my old bed, which I don't have anymore, so why keep the bedding?
And a bunch of other stuff I'm going to go through with the theater board treasurer to see if the theater wants it, and then box up whatever's salvagable and ship it off to Goodwill.
What this has accomplished is that I've dramatically reduced the clutter in my kitchen space. My closet is way more organized and I've regained the chair the old computer was sitting on.
I also met with my pastor yesterday, and I'm trying hard to figure the value in that. We talked for more than an hour, and I'm afraid he didn't make me any less uncomfortable with the distance I'm feeling between me and G-d, except to tell me that it's my fault somehow.
Um ... I'm the one who's recognizing a spiritual numbness, here, guy. I also touched on the depression and the not-smoking thing, and the more exercise thing and the omg I can't believe these frakking religious extremists thing -- which he said he was surprised that bothered me.
Well, it freeqin' does bother me that people run around justifying their violence and hatred in the name of G-d and I guess I have been having a serious problem being part of a more-or-less organized religion -- especially when we barely address this. It's not just Islamists who are completely out of line.
He said that it almost reaffirms his own faith walk when he encounters people who are so out of balance, whose interpretation of Scripture and G-d's will is so different from his own. And I said that when I encounter that I want to witness my own experience, except that I've grown really tired of doing that and now find I want to just withdraw from these conflicts, and am simply tired that they continue.
People just shouldn't.
Anyway, it was a good conversation. He's a good, well-meaning person but maybe not who I needed to talk to and he said as much. I was in a hard sweat afterwards so I know I was talking through and working through some stuff that really needed going through, and I'm happy I was able to articulate some of what's been going on in my head for a good long while now to someone who didn't react like I was a loon or a complete loser.
Cleaning out closets left and right.
OK, so I finally got my closet cleaned out, after years of just searching for stuff in there, shoving other stuff to the side and letting everything be a gigantic mess.
I gave my old air conditioner to my sister for one thing. That opened up a nice little space for my old computer to live. I could just throw the thing out, but you never know when you might need a decent prop computer and it doesn't take up all the space of ENIAC, so ...
I took a merciless claw to my clothing -- if I hadn't worn it in more than a year it was outta there!
I also pulled out a fuzzy ton of old bedding, which fit my old bed, which I don't have anymore, so why keep the bedding?
And a bunch of other stuff I'm going to go through with the theater board treasurer to see if the theater wants it, and then box up whatever's salvagable and ship it off to Goodwill.
What this has accomplished is that I've dramatically reduced the clutter in my kitchen space. My closet is way more organized and I've regained the chair the old computer was sitting on.
I also met with my pastor yesterday, and I'm trying hard to figure the value in that. We talked for more than an hour, and I'm afraid he didn't make me any less uncomfortable with the distance I'm feeling between me and G-d, except to tell me that it's my fault somehow.
Um ... I'm the one who's recognizing a spiritual numbness, here, guy. I also touched on the depression and the not-smoking thing, and the more exercise thing and the omg I can't believe these frakking religious extremists thing -- which he said he was surprised that bothered me.
Well, it freeqin' does bother me that people run around justifying their violence and hatred in the name of G-d and I guess I have been having a serious problem being part of a more-or-less organized religion -- especially when we barely address this. It's not just Islamists who are completely out of line.
He said that it almost reaffirms his own faith walk when he encounters people who are so out of balance, whose interpretation of Scripture and G-d's will is so different from his own. And I said that when I encounter that I want to witness my own experience, except that I've grown really tired of doing that and now find I want to just withdraw from these conflicts, and am simply tired that they continue.
People just shouldn't.
Anyway, it was a good conversation. He's a good, well-meaning person but maybe not who I needed to talk to and he said as much. I was in a hard sweat afterwards so I know I was talking through and working through some stuff that really needed going through, and I'm happy I was able to articulate some of what's been going on in my head for a good long while now to someone who didn't react like I was a loon or a complete loser.
Cleaning out closets left and right.