OOOH A shiny new space for me to yap about stuffs!

[Dr. Purple Goddess]

Well yay me! I'm like one of the cool kids now! I have a bloggytype space!

So, hmmm what to blog about....Well, I guess I'll have to create a few threads in here on various topics n stuffs. But until then, HI EVERYONE! Welcome to my bloggyspace and feel free to heckle me with French fries!

[GreatMuppetyNick]

I predict spanky-goodness.

[quantumcat]

ditto!!! ;D

[Dr. Purple Goddess]

Well you would be predicting correctly then

There will be a special spanky thread just for all you masochists out there

[Dr. Purple Goddess]

WARNING: Don't read this post if u don't wanna hear me whine about my life.

Ok, I'm sitting alone in the house with the 3 dogs, 3 cats and a possible job that looks more and more like it's slipping through my fingers.

I'm sort of in freak-out mode at the moment so I've decided I need a place to vent. So...without further ado...


As everyone knows, I've been on the job hunt ever since I got my Masters degree in my hot lil hands way back in Dec. 2004

I'll admit there have been a few decisions I've made that have put a kink in the job search.

1. Moving away from where I graduated rather than taking the job at the place I did my internship to put some more experience under my belt.
2. Moving to a whole new state without any contacts what so ever.

Those are the 2 decisions I've made that have not only made the job search harder, but take longer. Let's not forget the circumstances that have slowed me down.

1. Like it or not, but my physical disabilities slow me down by not being able to just drive to a job. Among other limitations that my prospective employers may or may not percieve.

2. 2005 was basically a bust because of the death of my brother and the termoil that put me in.

3. And I guess this last one is more of a decision rather than a circumstance...I'm now an expectant mother...(though the right to make that a choice in this country is basically an illusion because the government would rather spend money on resources after the fact rather than helping people before the fact.) But please just ignore that last bit because I'm not prepared to have a discussion about it.

having said all that...I was called recently about a job opportunity to work from home that is actually legitimate. Basically, I would be monitoring customer service/technical support calls for a major cable internet company.

Needless to say, I have the experience as I've done tech support before etc. I am completely motivated to do the work and be a great employee. It would be the perfect opportunity for me especially while I'm pregnant and while the baby is very young.

The job would be great, I have the qualifications, and I'm desperate for employment.... But the waiting is KILLING ME! They told me this week they'd be choosing people for training.

Well, it's friday, and still no word one way or the other...and I've been calling them every day to keep my name in their heads.

The thing is, our family can't afford for me not to be working. We are barely hanging on by a thread and it's entirely likely that if things keep on as they are with him being the only one bringing in an income, that we may not have a place to live. Or at the very least...I may have to cut off my only sources of job searching that I have available to me. (IE the internet, and phone)

I realize that money is an issue for everyone in this economy etc. Though I've been told our economy is getting better...what?

I really don't know what I'm going to do about employment. As it was I was having a hard time before I got pregnant and now my options seem even more limited.

I've never considered myself a lazy person, or a person who is looking for something for nothing. I've worked hard for the little I do have and accomplished in my life. I'm getting very tired of not getting a break. I'm tired of applying for jobs and getting turned down or not even considered.

I'm just plain tired.

Sometimes I catch myself thinking...why can't I do what that woman did on the net to get out of debt. She posted a website with her sob story and people sent her money that paid off her debts! She even ended up writing a frickin book about staying out of debt that actually sold enough to pay her a goodly amount of money!

I should put up the sob story of my life with a paypal link conveniently placed. Maybe post my resume too and see if anyone wants to come for me for once.

/sigh, I dunno. It's all just so frustrating and scary. I need to help support my family but I feel like I'm never going to get a break. I just want a JOB! I just want a chance to work and do my part to make a living and support my family.

I doubt I could ever resort to panhandling on the internet...but sometimes I wonder if maybe it might get me more than all these rejections have gotten me.

I have not been rejected for this job yet. But history won't let me get my hopes up and the fact that it's almost the perfect job for my circumstances makes me feel more like I have no chance in hell of getting it.

Wish me luck because I really could use a break. And I'm totally sorry for being such a downer but it is my blog so I can cry if I want to lol.

Maybe they'll say yes on Monday

[Charisma69]

Good Luck Feigy. I'm sure something good will come your way.

I know what you mean about the job whoas. I'm so sick of where I work now. It wasn't too terribly bad before but we've been so short staffed recently that it's been so frustrating.

Plus, going back up into management meant I had to give up my weekends off and the whole working straight days thing.

I don't like having so many evening hours because I don't like the idea of my son having so much unsupervised time. I know he's 15 now but he still needs someone to make sure he stays on a straight path.

Plus, I'm dating a guy who works Monday through Friday on days. So it's hard to get to spend time with him on weekends since I work.

I really haven't had sleep this weekend since I've worked a ton of early hours and I've been hanging out with him.

We went to the movies with my son on Friday night. We had to do the late show so he - the guy I'm seeing - could join us. I had to be in to work early.

Then last night Brad had a huge family birthday party to go to and he wanted me to go with him to meet the family. He was just so happy that I was going that I couldn't tell him no even though I was so tired from being up late the night before.

So I went and I've only had three hours sleep now. I think I've had about six hours sleep all weekend.

And I was sleep deprived before I even got to the weekend so you can imagine how much I'm not functioning right now.

I still have two more days of work to go - both nine hour (in theory since I never get off on time) shifts.

There just has to be a better way. Problem is I'm either too busy or just too tired to spend time looking for another job. Job hunting is a full time job in and of itself.

That and my job hunt before was so discouraging. Too many jobs where they either want me to be able to do things that I can't, they want tons of real world experience in the field, or they pay me less than I currently make now.

Wow, I just went all ranty in your ranty blog. Sorry about that.

[Dr. Purple Goddess]

Not a problem Cordy. I don't mind you ranting in my blog. It is frustrating whether it's the job or whether it's the not having one.

You are so right about the job hunt being a full time gig. I'm making a career out of it it seems. You'd think I'd've gotten better at it by now.

I also feel your pain about taking jobs that pay less or require stuff you can't do. I was very shocked to learn how many counseling positions wanted you to have a valid state drivers license. Well I don't qualify there. My Oklahoma License is about to expire which makes me really sad because there's no way in hell I'll be able to get one here in PA. Not that I would drive much around here anyhow. It's crazy out there.

I've had to go back to searching for jobs similar to the ones I've had in the past. Ironically I think I'll have a better chance at being hired in the computer related biz than as a therapist at the moment.

I still haven't heard anything about that work at home job. But I suspect their turnover rate is huge because they get a lot of people who think it will be cake. So I'm holding out on the idea that if I don't get it this time around I will keep sending them my resume' for future hires.

For me, another important thing to consider especially now that I'm expecting, is whether a prospective job will pay more than what I make on SSI. Which shouldn't be that difficult a hurdle...except I have to take public transportation wherever I end up and so it's got to be worth the extra time I'll spend just trying to get to work as well.

So in a nut shell, it's a lot harder trying to at least keep my current standard of living in most job prospects at the moment. Which is really sad when you consider the fact that a Masters degree should provide me with waaaay more earning potential down the road.... course I gotta get on that blasted road first. /sigh

I'm sorry your job sucks though. My mom is in a similar situation in that she works the graveyard shift at Wal-Mart. She's getting far too old to put up with the crap she has to deal with. She ends up working twice as hard as everyone else because they have mostly young lazy people who work with her that will call in sick or just not show up half the time. To top it off they don't want her to have overtime so her times get all messed up from having to work late for other people etc.

So, yeah working these crap jobs can certainly be more painful then getting rejected for employment all the time.

Maybe you could at least post your resume somewhere that pertains to what you went to school for. It would be a nice start anyway.

Well, I've got more hunting to do as well as some heavy house cleaning. Good luck Cordy! I hope you get some sleep soon!

[Charisma69]

Thanks Feigy. I actually got a ton of sleep today. I was up early but since I didn't have to work I thought I'd take a nap so I could stay up later tonight.

That was such a bad idea. The little nap turned into me sleeping all day. I didn't get much of anything done today which sucks since I'm so far behind on everything after working for eight days straight.

I figured I'd check out on what I've been missing online all week and then head off to bed so I hopefully won't sleep all day tomorrow.

Then it's back to freaking work again.

I'm actually considering stepping down from management and trying to go back to my Monday through Friday day shift. I can't deal with all this bouncing around on the schedule and the eight days crap has so got to go.

It's really not that much of a pay cut, but then every bit really helps.

It's so hard to decide.